How long have you been cutting?: on and off for about 8 years
Where (place) do you cut? (school, home, etc.): Anywhere I find it necessary
Favorite tool? The last three years I have taken a liking to razors.
Do you have to hide your whole arm(s) (wrists,forearms,& upper arms etc)?
I have to hide by upper arms the most.
Do you have to wear long-sleeves & long-pants all the time?
No, the ones on my wrists always heel and fade nicely.
Do you cut on your stomach or chest? I have before.
Are your legs, arms, & other body parts covered in scars? My arms are covered in scars. Some are obvious, some you need to take a closer look.
What’s your favorite excuse to use when someone asks about a cut?
It’s not the cuts I worry about, I usually hide those well, but once they are scars I get a little scared. I freeze up and don’t even know what to say because it is so incredibly obvious.
Off the top of your head, about how many scars do you have? Oh man, many of them have faded but I know scars never actually go away so I would assume I have around 300/400+
Have you ever been hospitalized because of your cutting? Yes.
Do you have (diagnosed or not) depression and/or bipolar/bpd? Depression, Bipolar, Anxiety. My diagnosis is being reevaluated though because I was diagnosed when I was 15.
Who knows you cut? My parents, my friends, people who see the scars. Everyone knows I used to cut, no one knows I still do.
Have you ever been caught cutting? Not in the act.
Have your parents ever confronted you about a bloody sleeve, or towel? No, they have asked about a cut though.
Did you have a good childhood? I’m not sure sometimes. I spent most of it with a babysitter, my parents were never really around.
Why do you cut? Sometimes I do it out of spite to be honest. Sometimes even for attention. But I usually do it to stop myself from crying because crying hurts so much.
Have you ever talked to a therapist or counselor? Yes
Do you want to stop cutting, but can’t because of addiction? I don’t know for sure if I’m actually addicted because I feel like I choose to stop on my own and come back to it on my own. I do believe at one time I was addicted to it and now it’s gotten better.
How many times have you tried to complete suicide? never
Do you like cutting? I like how I feel afterward and I like bleeding, but I don’t like having to live in fear that someone will see the cuts.
What are your views on cutting, and other self-injury? It’s a cry for help. We need help.
Do you like watching films about self injury? It makes me feel like I’m not alone.
Do you like looking at pictures of self-injury? Sometimes I think I do in a sick way.
Do you sometimes envy other people? (non-self-injurers) Yes, they don’t have to hide their scars, they can wear everything, they don’t feel like I do, sometimes I wish I could be that way..
Have you ever taken any pictures of your cuts/scars? Yes
Have you ever done a school assignment on cutting, or self-injury? No. it would be too emotional for me.
What do you like to listen to while cutting? songs that remind me of how horrible this life is and how alone I am
Have you ever needed stitches from cutting? Yes
Do you dream about cutting? No
Would you rather have a boyfriend/girlfriend that is also a cutter?
No, I can barely deal with my emotions, I don’t want someone who needs me that much, I’m not strong enough for two people..